The blog title is "NOZOMI" which stands for a hope in Japanese.
The "NOZOMI" came and motivated me to write my feeling down this blog entry.
In the late winter of 2011, I finished my degree and flew back to Japan.
That flight was a winning flight of my six years in Canada.
It took me six years to finish the degree with nearly two years period of an internship experience.
I do not think I am the only one who bet some of their life time for something to change their life.
My six years definitely changed my life compared to when I came to Canada.
I can fluently speak English, develop a professional level of software, and having a fun life.
Many immigrants coming from other countries into Canada have a similar background or reason.
My reason is to get an ability to perform a business worldwide and the ability will be like speaking
English, communication skills, and credible education from university in North America.
Of course, not only these abilities but there are many other abilities to do international businesses.
I brought these abilities back to Japan to help Japanese company's international businesses.
It had been going well and I enjoyed working in there.
On 11th March 2011, I was working in a office building in Tokyo and experienced the earthquake.
It was a very scary event and I regret coming back to Japan during the shock.
At first, I thought that I had not been rewarded yet for my six years and expensive tuition.
I finally decided to go back to Canada after I spent three months for consideration.
At the moment, I felt guilty because most Japanese people still have to live in Japan.
Many people do volunteer work and donation for the victims in Fukushima.
What I have done for them is only paying a tax part of which will be used to help them out.
I am so weak and I felt nothing.
Even after I went back to Canada, I was suffered from flashbacks sometimes.
I did not think I was such a scared but, to be honest, I was very scared.
With these flashbacks, I just past the probation period of new workplace so my life is a little better now.
I do not feel being proud of it. That experience gave me confidence to survive in Canada under pressure but I would rather to choose enjoying a worry-free life.
To celebrate new year, I just called my family in Japan yesterday for new year's greeting and I was a little worried if they refused me to talk because they might be disappointed by my going back to Canada.
They welcomed me and they also expressed their happiness by my Christmas gift which I sent to my family.
That calling brought me a very warm feeling.
I went to go for a walk after the greeting call and walking around the parking area near my staying place.
The parking area is empty and I just imagined that the parking will be filled up with cars by which people commute to work tomorrow.
Yes, tomorrow will certainly come and I will park my car here to go to workplace.
I looked up the sky and the new year's sun was sitting near horizontal line.
The sun will rise again and will be in the same position tomorrow.
The sun will rise again.
I felt hope by that.
Nothing related to my experience but the principle of nature lets me understand that something warming people up will rise again.
I should and have to do something for my family and people in Japan.
I'm initiated to go for 2012.
Let's Go.
Masashi